tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-100651562023-11-16T17:53:07.205+07:00Sixcycleno use for a taglinereihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.comBlogger463125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-63022143729656712052022-08-06T01:49:00.007+07:002022-08-06T02:26:54.080+07:00"You should rest." Someone messaged me those words this evening. And i wonder, rest from what? I'm not tired at all.Kata orang suatu saat kita bakal sampai pada titik dimana kita mempertanyakan kembali keputusan-keputusan besar yang pernah kita ambil dalam hidup. Berandai-andai kembali ke masa lalu. Undone things. Bertanya-tanya apakah semuanya bakal lebih baik. Dan berujung pada pertanyaan, reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-53848044917905345612022-04-15T18:34:00.055+07:002022-04-30T23:43:46.116+07:00FeelingmologyKesel nggak sih lama-lama, liat/denger orang ngomongin investasi, saham, kripto, bla-bla. Pas cuan langsung pasang story logo shiba inu, tapi pas kebanting nangis kena mental.Nyinyir kan gue.Aslinya gue paling males kalo ngomongin duit, karena jatohnya jadi preferensi pribadi yang nggak bisa didebatkan. Duit duit lu, mau ditabung kek, dipake foya-foya kek, binomo kek, serah. Tapi gegara barusan reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-18689718927252504742022-01-18T23:51:00.004+07:002022-03-08T03:39:54.457+07:00I hate goodbyes.Even when it might be better that way.I'm referring to all kinds of goodbyes, not only to human, but also other things like pets, stuffs, habits, places, feelings, even circumstances. Yeah, we all hate changes, right. The uncertainty, the fear of loses, the afraid ofs, the costs that sunk. But to be precise, its not the change that we're afraid of. Its actually the unlearn. reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-70470034973270472692021-09-22T21:27:00.003+07:002021-09-22T21:30:04.118+07:00Zero Sum GameEverything in life is zero sum game. From quantum physics to general relativity. From facts to belief. From order to chaos. Gravity, matter, time, age, food pyramids from biology class, chemical reactions, stock exchange, money, rules, thoughts, mental state. Everything. Like energy that can only be transformed. Like the rain falls to give birth to the grasses. Like when we feel better by hurtingreihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-66732651702339992922021-05-17T23:18:00.004+07:002021-05-18T00:32:34.505+07:00Barefoot CinderellaDunno how to say it, but i have a feeling something big has happened to you there. Am i right? Or am i just daydreaming? However, its about the time, right? There, on the other side of this locked door you're getting ready to face the forking road. Which path do you choose? I hate this wall forbid me to see anything. So close, yet feels so far.Do you believe in signs? Like suddenly remembered reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-13607509752938495822021-05-03T03:53:00.019+07:002021-05-03T22:40:13.315+07:00Dont Ask WhyJust woken up in a misty midnight. Have myself an egg sandwich and a cup of americano, sit on the foresty view backyard, and thinking. About everything. About how i managed to live here in the place I'd considered as the last option to stay, back years ago. About the people and all the rollercoasting social connection here and there. About how people think my life is totally fine and I'm strong reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-17604330657387789582020-04-15T05:21:00.000+07:002020-04-15T05:41:48.330+07:00The true form of acceptance is when you finally realize there is nothing left to face but a broken heart. No more anger, no more demand of sincere apology, no more needs of an explanation, because nothing left worth to argue. Only that feeling when you know you've left alone to fix mess you didn't do. Only that feeling when you fake a smile, no worries i'm fine, but you're not. That feeling reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-24009835697429217382020-02-16T03:04:00.001+07:002020-02-16T23:24:59.618+07:00Are We Running in the Same Timeline?Been insomnia for months now, and i'm craving for a proper sleep 😪. Some friends suggested me to take some sleeping pills from drugstore, but i asked them if they have some dose of self-esteem instead. Yeah when your reality has shifted that you don't know anymore what is real and what is not, what is right and what is wrong, going back to your own reality takes bunch of self-esteem boost. Wokenreihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-57167768913835129552020-02-07T00:15:00.000+07:002020-02-07T00:59:04.510+07:00Kita merayakan kebahagiaan. Tapi lupa, ada hati yang kita hancurkan.
Kita memamerkan kekuasaan. Tapi lupa, ada rekan yang kita singkirkan.
Kita membanggakan kesuksesan. Tapi lupa, ada saingan yang kita jatuhkan.
Kita menginginkan pengakuan. Tapi lupa ada yang terkorbankan.
Memuja yang diterima. Abai pada yang tak terasa.
Kita pendosa. Tapi merasa mulia.
Semua berbalas sama. Hanya masanya berbedareihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-18760550745960061332020-02-05T01:07:00.000+07:002020-02-07T20:50:46.798+07:00CurhatNgomongin orang itu jahat. Tapi enak. Apalagi lewat chat sambil rebahan 😅 Gue sering dapet chat macem gini: laki gue orangnya gini gitu sifatnya ini itu. Pengen ninggalin tapi ga tega soalnya dia tulus. Tapi takut udah wataknya nggak bisa berubah. Menurut lu sebagai cowo gimana. Dalam hati gue pengen bilang, udah tinggalin aja, you dont deserve him. Engga kok, ga kebalik. Ada keluhan buat reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-33807293367086289332020-01-03T20:45:00.000+07:002020-01-03T22:12:11.675+07:00I dont know if everything is getting harder for everyone or it's just me, but seems like life is trying to make me look around. I mean, how do you feel when one of people you care more than anything suddenly sent you a pic of bleeding hands and said "pengen mati, tapi baru berani segini." You probably scared, worried, or maybe cynicly laugh at it. For me its more like a heart break.
Just about reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-35167325316312732532019-12-31T06:56:00.000+07:002020-01-01T02:29:27.859+07:00Semacam obrolan ga penting sama emak-emak, tapi worth to remember 😂😅
"Lu tau kenapa pelakornya menang?" si emak nanya.
"Kenapa?"
"Ya kan mereka lg masa promosi wajar lah kinclong. Lah kitanya, suami lg dilalerin boro2 mikirin dandan, gua masih mau masakin aja mestinya udah syukur."
Haha, bener juga kata si emak. Jadi orang baik itu gampang. Tinggal dateng pas orang lain jatuh, tolongin, reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-3097603970788323872019-12-17T18:43:00.002+07:002019-12-21T01:33:23.755+07:00Extrovert WorldGa sengaja nemu Winter Song-nya Isyana, mendadak amazed dan ngerasa way sooo much introversion in one song, haha. Iya, walopun aksi panggungnya pecicilan begitu, Isyana tuh introvert sejati. Try listen to her latest album Lexicon, if you have some introversion in you, you'll find it being in your favorite playlist in no time.
By the way, its not simple being an introvert in the world built with reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-41705505731498491512019-12-03T02:06:00.000+07:002019-12-04T04:29:29.380+07:00Between Conscious and Subconscious"Do you know why i choose Turkey?
Because i did the ****** in Turkey
I need to confront all the fear, the sadness, the guilt
Been six years, but somehow the scars stay"
A good friend of mine has just tell me a horrible story of her life. I knew she has problem with self-harm, but i didn't know how it started, until today. It didn't come just like that. It started with a little mistake, followed reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-8084636327440983592019-11-16T04:12:00.000+07:002019-11-16T21:15:26.705+07:00Have you ever feel so afraid to go to bed and sleep, because you know you'll wake up in the morning feeling broken? And knowing your brain will playing back memories before you fall asleep. Staring at these city lights in the midnight always bring me this strange feeling. This city, with too many memories on its corners waiting to be erased. Stare at the peaceful night sky, the city sleeps, and reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-12962054151405613822019-02-16T22:22:00.000+07:002019-02-16T22:49:22.340+07:00Kalo sekarang ada yang nanya "apa pencapaian terbesar kamu seumur hidup?", gue bakal jawab koding 1000+ baris dalam waktu kurang dari 24 jam. Sekian dan terima kasih.
Dan setelah 24 jam yang gila itu tiba-tiba muncul mood buat baca-baca Reading List di backpanelnya Blogger yang entah bagaimana nggak pernah gue sadari lagi keberadaannya. Itu artinya udah lama banget gue nggak reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-17433131956300335382018-12-29T21:15:00.000+07:002018-12-30T00:29:06.135+07:00Cruel WorldKamu jujur, saya jujur
Kamu respek, saya respek
Kamu licik, saya bisa jauh lebih licik, haha
This is a cruel world bruh..
Bad people deserve bad things to learn
Being a good one without any defense is suicide.reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-37000009904825048282018-12-29T02:30:00.000+07:002018-12-31T11:03:14.599+07:00"Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street"
The Script - The Man Who Cant be Moved
Beberapa hari terakhir ini gue demen banget dengerin lagu jelek ini. Kayaknya efek waktu tidur yang cuma reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-40602339766687776922018-12-16T21:55:00.000+07:002018-12-17T20:10:09.791+07:00Hey, O!Hey kamu! Iya, kamu, yang menunjukkan bahwa kebebasan adalah hembusan angin yang mengalir di sela-sela jemari yang terbuka saat kita berkendara. Yang mengatakan bahwa senja yang merona bukan untuk dibagi bersama. Yang selalu punya seribu makna dalam satu tanya, "apa kabar?"
Selamat ya..
Menyesal itu bisa sesimpel ketika kita memutuskan untuk gak bawa headset tapi tiba-tiba terlintas keinginan reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-91143162138009570042018-12-08T00:14:00.003+07:002018-12-10T18:24:18.211+07:00Year 1Think you know it all, think you've been through everything, and then life come with lessons you've never thought before.
Rasa-rasanya makin kesini waktu bukan lagi berjalan atau berlari, tapi menguap dan lenyap begitu saja. We dont count days anymore but years. Nggak kerasa hampir setahun gue pindah dari Sidoarjo, dan rasanya seperti wow begitu banyak cerita yang terjadi sejak itu. Terlalu reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-24896431608387175672017-11-09T22:43:00.000+07:002017-11-10T06:10:30.204+07:00Irreparable"That is the only essence of this life."
"A Happiness."
You said it honestly.
Its always come nights like this for one or two, when city lights are off in the midnight, and the pale moon light is the only thing that come through your window where you starring out at, blurly. You feel lonely alone and think about the people who wreck you.
Are they doing good somewhere?
Are they just moving reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-4939391344175257382017-10-28T01:06:00.000+07:002017-10-29T11:38:18.346+07:00Another Year ZeroYou play chess. Against a blind man. But you only allowed to lose.
You play boxing. Against a dummy. But you only allowed to hit yourself.
You want to jump over the wall. But you only allowed to shut up and wait until the wall fall thorugh over you.
When you know every move will only be a blunder, when you know every punch will only hit yourself, when you know there's no one left on your side reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-6414216437666661222017-02-19T19:34:00.000+07:002017-02-19T21:12:38.864+07:00
People come and go. Some you'll miss, some you'll forget, and sometimes you'll suddenly miss one you've forgotten.
I met someone on a job interview years ago. She came from a city hundreds miles far to the west. I was too, but on the opposite direction. On that small town we found the chemistry at no time at all. But then time happened. We had to go back to each other's city.
Time passed,reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-39518372503982188842016-10-15T23:45:00.000+07:002016-10-15T23:56:45.383+07:00Some Call It KarmaReading younger person's mind is easy. One advantage of being older is you have more experience on many things than them. History repeats, they do what you did, go where you went, say what you said, lie like you lied, you know it all too well. What's not easy is how would you act when you know they're doing mistakes you did. Especially when mistakes they do make impact to your very own life. reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10065156.post-33078934098021237492016-10-10T23:33:00.001+07:002016-10-15T23:36:22.066+07:00This Wont WorkHi, sorry for discontinued post about that old flores overland trip. Yeah, I wasnt even post about the best parts of the trip yet, but believe me Komodo Islands' Live on Boat is gonna be one of your best trip experience in your life ;)
Anyway, have you ever starred at notepad for hours trying to write something but you have no clue of what you should write? I did, almost every single day in reihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13080314888005512585noreply@blogger.com5