Hehe, akhir-akhir ini jarang posting lagi, ada mainan baru...hehe. Huuh, empat hari ini aku gak pernah tidur malem, tidurnya siang terus, ampe sore. Malem gentayangan ato nonton movie ato maen game. Heey, ada yang tau gak, apa obat insomnia yang manjur tanpa minum obat? Hore, hari-hari membosankan datang lagi, dengan rutinitas yang persis sama setiap harinya. Fundamental is the building block of fun, kan? Hohoho....

She'd do anything to sparkle in his eye
She would suffer, she would fight, and compromise
She's been wishin' on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to the questions that will haunt her tonight
She must rinse him
She must rinse him
She can't rinse him
She can't rinse him
She can't, she won't, she must rinse him
She can't, she won't, she must rinse him
She must rinse this all away
She can't hold him this way
She must rinse this all away
She can't love him this way
(Rinse-Vanessa Carlton)

Trully i cant rinse her away...

Huh, tambah lagi satu noda di karpet biruku. Belum hilang tumpahan cokelat yang yang kubuat baru2 ini, eh, skrg giliran teh yang tumpah, menambah kotor nih karpet. Emang bukan noda yang besar sih, tapi tetep aja ngga enak dipandang. Mana noda2 itu susah hilang, lagi! Habis banyak duit buat ke laundry,tapi hasilnya mengecewakan. Noda cokelat sih bisa ilang, tapi noda teh masih tetap kelihatan. Numpahinnya sih gampang banget, yang susah tuh menghilangkan nodanya. Huh, mulai saat ini musti hati2, jangan sampe ketumpahan lagi. Ga penting banget, ya?hehe...

Is it so far away the place where i stand right now to grace? Feels like i've climb for thousands miles to it, but i can never gain what i wanna reach. Climb up, then fall down. When will it stop? Where will it stop?

What day is it? And in what month? THe clock is never seem so alive. What am i doing here? What i just realized is it's just another day now, and i still trapped in the shadow of the past. All i do is climb up the ladder to the sun, but all i get is just down and down. I'm beautifully broken, slowly blinded by its shine, cant decide which way i should go to, to getting up. But it's all no use now, cause i never get closer to your abounding grace.

Akhirnya, kehidupan kembali berlanjut!! Setelah kira-kira seminggu terhenti oleh ujian. Gimana enggak, hampir seminggu ini makan nggak teratur, tidur nggak teratur, dari pagi ke malam kerjanya menghadapi buku terus. Bangun subuh, ujian, pulang belajar sampe jam setengah empat pagi. Malahan kemaren tidurnya baru jam tengah enam, padahal ujiannya dua jam lagi. Walhasil, saya telat ikut ujian, gara-gara telat bangun! Hahaha, telat kira-kira dua puluh menit, trus sampe di kelas ditanya, dari mana, sama temen yang duduk di sebelah. Saking groginya aku ga bisa jawab. Iyalah, semaleman belajar buat ujian, masa malah ujiannya ndiri hampir ngga ikut!
Hahaha, sekarang semua itu udah berlalu! Saatnya melanjutkan hidup!!Yay!!

Nggak terasa sudah seminggu libur semesteran berjalan. Mulai deh ngerasa bosan lagi. Jadwal sehari-hari: pagi-pagi keliling2 jakal (jalan kaliurang) sebentar, trus sarapan. Lanjut bengong-bengong seharian di kosan. Mau ngapain coba, temen2 udah pada bubar semua, udah balik ke kampung masing2 sejak hari pertama libur. Mau ke kampus gak berani, takut ketemu sama nilai ujian yang udah mulai ditempel. Mau pulang kampung, entar dulu deh. Mau jalan-jalan sendiri, nggak seru kan. Terpaksa deh, tiap hari mampir ke Istana buat ngerental film. Ya, akhirnya gini deh, nongkrong di sic, posting sambil buka-buka blog lain. Ayo dong Lifehouse keluarin album baru, udah satu tahun nihh..

I try hard to be someone else. I fight too much to be better. But why those funny faces still won't smile to me?